Happy or Sad?
What should be my emotion now?

I need a pillar in my life.
A stable pillar.
Why would i take the chance to choose a mayb less stable pillar.
But for now,i only need my current pillars.
There mayb times that i wish there is someone.
But there is still myself.
At least i wont cheat on myself.
Impossible that i would hurt myself.


Now i know the power academic can have on someone.
How powerful it is.The potential it have.
How it could chnge ppl.
That i feel ppl are getting drifted away.